houston, we have a problem

sometimes i surprise myself with how untruthful i can be. I don’t do it to deceive people. I find myself unable to say/express what I truly mean because I don’t want to be vulnerable. I don’t want people to know me because it makes me feel exposed and uncomfortable.

it’s a terrible problem, but i have God and a couple of people i can rely on to help me. it’ll be alright. it’ll work. it has to. because if it doesn’t, i don’t really know what else in life will. that’s how sure i am of it – i just need to live it now.

i know i can

be what i wanna be
if i work hard at it
i’ll be where i want to be

focus

knowing what to do or how to act isn’t hard. follow through with what you know. no more running looking for an easy way out. this is a blessing, a great opportunity. in the words of 2010 nba finals mvp, don’t [bleep] it up.

jumble

too much of everything

what

does it all matter?

we say in Christ we find comfort. What if we can’t find him? he finds us. so where is he? why doesn’t he tell me what’s right, what’s best for me, what i’m supposed to do.